One thing what I like to mention. My easy running is for me just regular training, but in my miniironmanrun is for me more surprising swimming on the beach of the nudist. I understand during this very simple things - first, I am absolutely person of the society. I swim there already 5-7 times but every time I feel like little lost person. I cannot forget my world where I live every day. I take my rules in the water, it is still so, nothing to do. Second - I all the time feel the shame. I know that I looks better than 90% of persons on this beach, but it is very hard to be 100% sure in myself. Later I usually feel another shame, shame that I am was so weak inside me. Third - even In the ocean I feel myself unprotected, difference between regular swimming is only very small peace of clothe, but emotional side is much bigger... It is hard to be absolutely natural inside...
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